midwife, doula, hubby and me, I will not conform.
I'm breathing the way I need to,
moving the way I need to,
walking when I need to,
squatting when I need to.
Pacing the rooms, my feet are bare,
our lives on these walls, and soon baby is there.
I'm eating because I need to,
drinking when I need to,
only talking when I need to,
peacefully quiet because I need to.
Coldplay on the itunes,
fresh flowers wafting through,
feeling confident and strong
my body knows just what to do.
Laughing when I need to,
closing my eyes because I need to,
crying when I need to,
reaching out for you because I need you.
Room filled with soft whispers,
the only light is in the hall,
warm water pouring over my back,
not feeling rushed at all.
Rocking when I need to,
humming when I need to,
blocking out what I need to,
drawing inward because I need to.
Pain ever present, feeling like I need to push,
my body taking over, water breaking there's the woosh!
I'm kneeling because I need to,
embracing the feeling because I need to,
battle cries when I need to,
retreating home when I need to.
Husband is strong never leaving my side,
my head is in his chest.
Everyone is waiting for me to give their cue
because they know, I know myself best.
I'm pushing when I need to,
for however long my body needs to,
I'm moaning when I need to,
laboring naturally because I need to.
The baby is coming quickly now
as you can see in the water below!
Is our new little love
a baby girl or baby boy?
We still do not know!
I reach down because I need to,
catch my baby in my arms because I need to,
we embrace our new love because we need to,
Free to take the time that we need to.
We squeal in delight our baby is here
oh, such a magical joy!
After several minutes of loving this new bundle
we discover that he is a boy!
Holding him close because I need to,
cord cutting can wait because it needs to,
adjusting peacefully because he needs to,
in mama's arms because we need to.
Everyone is happy and safe,
bouncing baby boy is ten pounds!
The house is bright and filled with love
and all sorts of new baby sounds.
A shower and my bed because I need to,
breastfeed him when he needs to,
skin to skin because we need to,
all three napping together because we need to.
After a peaceful sleep big sister is here!
She wants to meet “baby brother.”
She knew all along it'd be you coming to her,
this bond is like no other.
Believe in yourself because you need to!
Your heart is telling you what it needs to,
trust yourself because you need to,
Be strong for your baby, because he needs you.
By Colleen Duncan-Canavan
Dec 4, 2011
This poem was inspired by my water baby, Ely Finn. Born at home, caught by his mother. I'm waiting to hear back if this will be accepted into an anthology. I'll update it here if it was chosen.
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Many of my facebook family and friends voted for my story and so many of you promoted it on your page and got your friends and family and co-workers, etc. to vote too and I appreciate that so much! I still have a few more raffles to pick too, so stay tuned! I'll be writing a blog post to thank all of you individually who supported my little story, so I'll share that on here as well. I have not forgotten you and I appreciate you very much!
The MeeGenius contest is officially over and it appears that they have decided not to choose "Baby Brother" as a semi finalist. They will announce the semi-finalists officially on Jan 31st. I wrote them an email last week asking them if they already sent out the emails but I read it on their facebook page today that they have already chosen them and sent out emails. The number of semi-finalists is undetermined. Despite the fact that I was fairly certain I was going to be a judge's pick, they have another vision for their ebooks library, and I'm actually excited about the possibilities that are now out there for me to explore with my story and the others in the "older sibling/baby sibling"series. Many people have asked me to write other versions of my story so their child can have one about them too, so I plan to do just that. I'll be working on a Big Sister/Baby Sister version, a Big Brother/Baby Sister version and a Big Brother/Baby Brother version! I'd love to hear any ideas you may have for these stories. If you have any special moments that have been shared between your own children that you can see fitting into one of these stories, I'd love to hear it! Please share in the comments section of this blog post or you can email me too at: firstname.lastname@example.org.
I'm not bummed that it wasn't chosen because of all of the positive feedback I have received from all of this. I'm looking at this as a blessing in disguise because I really see this book as a hard cover book that you can own and have it on your shelf, where you can sit and read it and physically flip through the pages even if you don't have an ipad/iphone. It will be published one way or another either through self publishing or through finding a publisher who believes in this story as much as I do. However, I'll need to wait til April of 2012 before it's "officially released" back to me. MeeGenius still has the rights to publish it later after the contest is over. I'm not sure why they would do that if it's not a semi-finalist, but we'll see. I'd rather it just be released back to me at this point so I can find a publisher to make it into a physical book.
I'm so overwhelmed by all of the love and support so many of you have given me and my little story, as well as the perfect strangers who took the time to vote and leave me a comment to tell me how it touched them. I'm going to print up all of my comments and treasure them always. I will also compile them into one blog post so my mom can read all of them too, haha. Or anyone else for that matter.
Thank you again soooo much! It really touched my heart beyond words how so many of you took the time to support me and my writing. It means a lot and I'm very grateful to have so many of you in my life and call my friend. Thank you.
P.S. Here is an UPDATE on my children's book.
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