Someday you won't need me to rock you to sleep while I stroke your hair and hum your favorite songs holding you for as long as you need me to because I know this won't last forever.
Someday your tiny body won't feel like a squishy marshmallow.
Someday you won't have that sweet baby smell.
Someday your chin won't be as soft as a baby's bum.
Someday you won't be sucking your thumb and twirling your hair as you gaze into my eyes while I make you laugh and watch your thumb fall out of your mouth.
Someday I won't lift you up to change your diaper and gasp at what a heavy baby you are.
Someday you won't cry when I leave the room and then throw your arms around my neck sobbing into the soft spot between my shoulder and cheek all because you want me to hold you.
Someday you'll be big enough to ride all of the "big kid rides" with sissy.
Someday I won't be the favorite person in your life.
Someday you won't run everywhere you go making your cheeks bounce up and down while you are making silly noises.
Someday you won't stand at sissy's door crying your eyes out because she won't let you in to play Calico Critters.
Someday mommy will let you have an ice cream cone
even though daddy already has.
Someday you'll know every word to all of your favorite songs and you'll have lengthy conversations with your friends and we'll no longer marvel at your amazing vocabulary for a 1 & 1/2 year old.
Someday you won't want to hold my hand.
Someday you'll say,
"Goodnight mom. Goodnight dad." And you'll walk into your room and go to bed without first needing to read,
"Goodnight Moon."
Someday daddy and I will be able to eat dinner and watch a movie without any interruptions.
Someday you won't spontaneously break out into a silly dance while you are eating animal crackers.
Someday you'll stop eating all of your veggies.
Someday you'll be able to cross the street without me holding your hand or carrying you.
Someday you'll be too big for me to carry.
Someday you'll be too heavy for me to pick up.
Someday I'll be able to get rid of the diaper bag, the stroller, the car seats, the Ergo, the crib...
Someday you'll tell me that you fell in
love.
Someday you won't cry in the middle of the night and daddy will bring your into our bed where you'll proceed to do downward dogs and then fall on us and jam your head into our ribs and make snow angels until you are taking up almost the entire mattress...at 3am.
Someday you'll jump off of the side of the pool and you won't need us to catch you.
Someday I'll say, "
Give mommy a kiss" and instead of reaching up to kiss me you'll say,
"Mooooom! You're embarrassing me!"
Someday you won't need a high chair, a bib, a toddler spoon or a sippy cup.
Someday you and your sister will be mad at us for moving from Kauai.
Someday you won't use your entire hand as a yogurt spoon.
Someday you won't draw all over your body with markers.
Someday you won't find it hilarious to walk around the house with a box on your head while you bump into the walls.
Someday you won't need a night light or a bed time story or a favorite lovie to comfort you.
Someday you'll make yourself something to eat.
Someday you'll complain to me about your own toddler going through the "
terrible two's" and I'll smile and think back to this phase of my life and I will laugh because I'll be so far removed from it, it will finally become funny....
I look forward to that day.
Someday you'll want daddy to teach you how to ride his shovelhead, and we'll hold our breath as we watch you ride away.
Someday you'll have your own life, your own thoughts, your own ideas, your own worries and someday you won't want our advice.
Someday you won't need me to rock you to sleep while I stroke your hair and hum your favorite songs holding you for as long as you need me to because I know this won't last forever.
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So today I'll cherish this life we have right now with you being my baby and me being your mommy. I'll cherish the laughter and the tears, the tantrums and the all-nighters, the Houdini-like escapes as I try to change a dirty diaper, the mad dashes down the hall to get a giggling baby into the tub and the naked baby chases after. I'll cherish every silly whisper you breathe into my ear, every eye poke you give me announcing,
"eye! eye!" and every wet finger in my ear yelling,
"ear! ear!" I'll continue to marvel when you say things out of the blue like,
"5-4-3-2-1 Blast Off!" because you aren't even 2 yet or when you spin in a circle singing,
"ashes, ashes..." I'll laugh when you stack all of your toys up on top of each other and when they don't fall over you throw your arms out parallel to the floor and yell,
"Taaaa daaaaa!" And above all my heart will continue to melt whenever I see you smile or laugh or run and jump, or say
"thank you mommy" when I bring you your
"eggy and cheeee" at breakfast, or when you reach for sissy's hand to hold, or say,
"ess you mama" when I sneeze or when you keep repeating, "
thank you, thank you, thank you!" until I take the thing out of your hand that you no longer want to hold. Because you are my sweet, precious angel baby and I will still love you even when I am no longer walking this earth.
You will forever be my beautiful baby boy with the bright blue eyes and the bouncing blonde curls as you run away from me when I try to kiss you.
Love,
Your mommy
-Colleen Duncan Canavan
